God is a mystery. a divine adventure within a Name. the Name. HaShem. i must say that this past month has been a quite particular event in this walk of ours. with a renewed focus and determined stare, i have been refreshed. it all started with the 21 days of prayer and fasting at my church. beginning this new year with a time of letting go has been a ride. not only did i abstain from certain everyday niceties, but i was challenged to fast assuming. we all know the old adage, so i will refrain from repeating it here...but yes it made one of me. a big fat donkey. i must say, when i was asking the Lord what He would like me to give up, assuming was the last thing on my mind. but now i see it was the first on His for me. long have a struggled with fear or battles of the mind. long have i relegated to rest in hypothetical situations in the name of protection. you see, it was out of self-protection that this mind would jump to conclusions that were quickly followed by fear or doubt or walls. but as the Holy Spirit has so gently 'red-flagged' my thought pattern, the catalyst to years of battle has been exposed. no more, my friends.
this bugger named assuming is not the Lord's way. it was a slippery slope, bent on taking me down the longest, windiest shoot possible. however, when i set up my thoughts and subsequent actions to what Jesus says, shall i say, it became a miracle. i complete and utter miracle. and continues to be. if miracling was a word, i would insert it here. a continuous miracle, as it were, is happening in my life. it's like the Lord has set me up for freedom and i'm dancing in the thought of it all.
i cannot give you bold testimonies or qualitative data, but what i can say is that it's wonderful. it's a battle, yes, but it's worth it. every second of 'oh yeah...sorry Lord' is worth it.
that Jesus is a genius, i tell you what.